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1. How long have you been harming yourself? since I was 10
2.where do you harm yourself? Arms legs hips stomach
3.what do you use: razor knives boxcutter glass... welll a lot of things
4. Are you willing to talk about self harm with other sufferers: yepp
5.how do you react after you have done it: I'm calm
6.do people know about your SHing: yeah.. I wish they didn't tho.
6b. Has anybody ever said anything about it to you? Yerp. They said I shouldn't do it. That its pathetic. Some have called me a freek. Or they'll be.like what the hell is that?! My dad threatens to send me away again. And my mom just don't care.
7.do you feel your SHing is a good or bad thing: good and bad. But hey we all make choices right.
8.do you harm during a particular part of the day or when do you?: when I'm upset.
9.what triggers your SH: a lot of things like my weight my parents my grades memories depression my ED
10.how often do you harm: ehh depends
11. Yeah
12.Do you feel the need to stop? : no I like it. I know sounds sick right?
13.are you seeking help: yeah I'm in counceling Bc ppl force me I have no choice really.
13b.do you have someone to talk to about your Sh: no because theyall freeeek out.
14.do you ever feel suicidal: a lot actually
14b. Have you ever acted on it: yeah I had to get my stomach pumped twice. Not a fun time. And had some other incedents.
15.do you express yourself creatively: yeah gutair draw paint that sorta stuff. Oh and photography.
16.no.
17. Sixteen
18.mental illnesses: ED (eating disorder) depression anxiety adjustment disorder drug addiction suicidal thoughts and tendicys
oh by the way my names annah
there are a lot of questions here. It took me forever to fill them out but here ya go (:
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Research Study- Share your Experience If You Cut

Have you intentionally cut yourself in the last 30 days? We invite you to share your experience by participating in a short online study. The purpose of this research is to examine health factors related to self-injury (without the intention to commit suicide). The results from this study are completely confidential and cannot be linked to your identity, and all procedures have been approved under the ethical guidelines set by the APA. 

You must have intentionally cut yourself in the last 30 days and be 18 years of age or older to participate in this study. 

If you are interested in contributing to this research, please visit: 

https://periwinkle.ts.odu.edu/surveys/YMRGHS

If you have any questions, please email Tatyana Kholodkov at tkholodk@uwyo.edu or Dr. Carolyn Pepper at cpepper@uwyo.edu

Thank you for your time!

Volunteers Needed for a Research Study on Self-Injury

Do you deliberately injure yourself or have a history of self harm? We invite you to share your experience by participating in a quick online study to learn more about people’s experience with self-injury. The purpose of this research is to understand factors associated with self-injury. The results from this study are completely confidential and cannot be linked to your identity, and all procedures have been approved under the ethical guidelines set by the APA.

You must have a history of intentional self-harm/ self-injury/ self-mutilation, and be 18 years of age or older to participate in this study. 

If you are interested in contributing to this research, please visit: 

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If you have any questions, please email Tatyana Kholodkov at tkholodk@uwyo.edu or Dr. Carolyn Pepper at cpepper@uwyo.edu

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1. How long have you been harming yourself?  snce i was eight years old
2. Where do you harm yourself? arms, legs, breasts
3. What do you use? anything. razors, straigh edge, saftey pin.
4. How willing are you to talk about self-harm with other sufferers? yes
5. How do you react after you've done it? What do you feel, think? i don't feel anything. i just want to die.
6. Do people know about your SH'ing? yes
6b. If so, has anyone ever said something to you about it? What did they say? the say don't do that
7. Do you feel SH is a good or a bad thing? both.
8. Do you harm more at any particular time during the day, or just whenever you get the urge? whenever i feel like i need to
9. What triggers you to SH? i don't really know. usually when i shut down i think i need to
10. How often do you harm? a lot less than i used to
11. Do you think you have a problem? no
12. Do you feel you need to stop? no
13. Are you seeking help, or are you in therapy/counselling, etc.  they all let me down
13b. Do you have someone to talk to about your SH? no
14. Have you ever felt suicidal?  every day
14b. (if yes) Have you ever acted on the feeling? yes
15. Do you express yourself creatively, ie. writing, singing, playing an instrument, art? no
16. Do you have any cutting rituals? Shaving before cutting, naming the implement, etc.? no
17. *Roughly* how old are you? You don't need to be exact if you don't want... 18
18. Do you suffer with any other mental health issues such as depression, eating disorders...? bulimia and depression. the doc and my mom say i am bipolar and have anxiey but i doubt it.

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i went a while without cutting. i can't remember due to the purging. it really messes with my memory. but i broke down last night/this morning and cut. it was the first time i had cut anywhere other than my arms or legs and i wish i had cut deeper and more. but i couldn't do it. i also chose another word in addition to my usual. its weird how often i cut the word die in myself. its usually out of anger. i cut 'pathetic' too. i want to cut again. right now. i don't see any reason why i shouldn't. i dont even know why i should keep living. this isn't living. this is misery.

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1. How long have you been self-harming? for about 30 yrs. 2. Where do you harm yourself? mostly on my thighs where most people can't see. 3. What do you use? razorblades 4. How willing are you to talk about self-harm with others? very willing. 5. How do you react when you do it? What do you feel, think? i I feel relief from pent-up emotion, as I watch the blood run down my leg, I can finally breath again. 6. Do people know about your self-harming? Most people do 6b. If so, has anyone ever said something to you about it? What did they say? most peoplnne don't say anything, recently my chiropractor noticed some of my scars and asked me what happened. I said, "I cut myself." He replied, "It looks like a pirate got ahold of you." I have found if you make light of it so will others 7. Do you thing s-h is a good or bad thing? I'm ambivilent about it. 8. Do you harm more at a particular time of day or just whenever you gu
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Sorry I had to post before completion of the intro questions. My screen froze so I had to go ahead and post early.8. Do you harm at any particular time of day or just when you get the urge? usually at night time. 9. What triggers you to s-h? Anger and rage, sometimes anxiety 10. How often do.you harm? about twice a month now. 11. Do you think you have a problem? yes 12. Do you feel the need to stop? yes. 13. Are you seeking help, or are you in therapy? in therapy. 13b. Do you have someone to talk to about your s-h? yes. 14. Have you ever felt suicidal? yes most days. 15. Do you express yourself creatively? yes, poetry. 16. Do you have any cutting rituals? yes, I'm getting ready to cut and counting. 17*Roughly* how old are you? 43 18. Do you suffer with any other mental health issues? Bipolar disorder, PTSD, borderline disorder and alcohol dependency and social anxiety disorder.
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1. How long have you been self-harming? for about 30 yrs. 2. Where do you harm yourself? mostly on my thighs where most people can't see. 3. What do you use? razorblades 4. How willing are you to talk about self-harm with others? very willing. 5. How do you react when you do it? What do you feel, think? i I feel relief from pent-up emotion, as I watch the blood run down my leg, I can finally breath again. 6. Do people know about your self-harming? Most people do 6b. If so, has anyone ever said something to you about it? What did they say? most peoplnne don't say anything, recently my chiropractor noticed some of my scars and asked me what happened. I said, "I cut myself." He replied, "It looks like a pirate got ahold of you." I have found if you make light of it so will others 7. Do you thing s-h is a good or bad thing? I'm ambivilent about it. 8. Do you harm more at a particular time of day or just whenever you gu
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Welcome!

Welcome to the new members that have joined recently.

Thank you all for filling out the survey. It's lovely to know we're not the only ones battling these problems.

I am recovered, myself, but it was a very long and difficult journey and I know all of you have your own ahead of you. I wish you all the best and that you do come through the other side.

Learn from your mistakes, don't punish yourself for them.

I have a fairly hands-off approach to this community but I read your entries and any comments you leave for me.

I would just like to say to people not to post their private contact details on here. It is still an internet site and whilst I'm sure you won't have any problems, it's better to be safe than sorry. Please just LiveJournal's private messaging function to get in touch with members, or leave comments on the community for them to read. Don't hesitate to tell me, and report to LiveJournal, anybody who is hassling you or if you feel bullied or threatened in any way. I will remove anybody from the community if I see it happening.

Remember, you are not alone. If anyone here needs someone to speak to, please private message me or reply to any of my entries here. You can find me with the 'mod' tag.

I am not here to say nobody should cut, nor am I here to promote it. I just think it's important for those who choose to do it to have a place they can talk about it without upsetting or worrying people. If you don't want to talk about it, that's fine too.

Be safe.
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1. How long have you been harming yourself? About nine months with cutting, but SH seven years.
2. Where do you harm yourself? Arms, wrists, hands, shoulders, stomach, hips, ribs, thighs, legs, ankles and feet.
3. What do you use? Knives, razors, glass (preferable), anything sharp really.
4. How willing are you to talk about self-harm with other sufferers? ummm, i guess im willing to.
5. How do you react after you've done it? What do you feel, think? I feel like a wave of stress go away and i feel on top of the world. I think that this is the only good thing ive ever done.
6. Do people know about your SH'ing? Not until my attempted suicide then the doctors told my parents. My two best friends knew before that, but they both did it too.
6b. If so, has anyone ever said something to you about it? What did they say? My friend told me to call her before i did it. she didnt like me cutting even though she did it too. I'm like  her little sister so naturally she hated the thought of me doing it.
7. Do you feel SH is a good or a bad thing? I feel SH is good if you need it. If you dont then dont do it. .
9. What triggers you to SH? When I let my friends down.
10. How often do you harm? Every day at least twice a day until a few weeks ago then i just did it maybe once a week.
11. Do you think you have a problem? NO.
12. Do you feel you need to stop? Not really. .
13. Are you seeking help, or are you in therapy/counselling, etc. My parents made me go to therpy after my term in the mental hospital was over.
13b. Do you have someone to talk to about your SH? Yes, even though i dont like to i talk to my best friend about it. she stopped SHing so she understands EVERYTHING.
14. Have you ever felt suicidal? YES.
14b. (if yes) Have you ever acted on the feeling? Three times.
15. Do you express yourself creatively, ie. writing, singing, playing an instrument, art?  I love to write stories based on what ive done (i. e pretty damn near everything)
16. Do you have any cutting rituals? Shaving before cutting, naming the implement, etc.? Not that I know of.
17. *Roughly* how old are you? You don't need to be exact if you don't want... Just turned fifteen last month
18. Do you suffer with any other mental health issues such as depression, eating disorders...? I have SEVERE genetic depression, bulemia, and anarexia.